It is not the easiest question on first thought. There are too many distractive circumstances that make answer to this question complicated. But this is only on first thought.

Giving myself a second chance to think about it, will bring me in my memories to many situations that actually make answering easier. My life is a good example of trial and error. But the intresting thing is that every time i had learn something. Maybe not stright away but still there was allways a lesson. And still is.

You see im kind a complicated person who kinda chooses the most difficult ways to whatever destination I'm heading to. Its been funny, anoying, dangerous and stressfull, but at the end of the day im still alive. And this is the most critical part to understand, talking about GOD. There is no sense to give a lesson to person who is dead or who is going to be dead any time soon. You see where im going with that?

It is a marvellous realisation that i just recently came to. Life is a journey. But it is not the jorney to any particular place here on Earth. It is the jorney of dicovery of all that we come in to contact with. And most importantly it is discovery of our very beeing. Who we really are. And that gives me all different approach to my own life.

Just think about even these few senses that we actively use day to day. Our sight, our hearing system, our tasting, our feeling. It is not just that we receive an image and our brain processes it to recognizable images. It is much more.

Come on every time i see my wife naked i bless univerese for such a marvellous creation. And i dont have to explain why. Or even if i see a flower with the spectrum of inimaginable colors that takes my breath away, But thats what make our life so enjoyable. These small things.

But what about all that crap, excuse my french. The problems that drive me crazy. Well thats where my little expirience comes handy. Every time if im in yet another "trouble" i have actually forgot about all these small things in our life that bring joy and actually looked trough them. I lost the touch with the inner me. My higher ME. Cos my higher me knows how to feel happy without anything that comes outside. But my ego needs allways something on top of what to warm itself.

Yes suddenly there is need for something else. Something shiny or big. And there you go. I discover myself chasing something that i dont even understand what it is. But its something BIG and SHINY

But as i said in the beginning then life gives us opportunity to learn. Now, we can do it easy way or we can do it our way. But it is the way we choose.  After all The Bible actually talks about first human couple making their choice. Their choice was doubt. Well and here we all are. Chacing something and wondering why is the world as it is.

But world is wonderful if we only would have faith to see it. Recently i was introdused to film made by Peter Rodger

It is really intresting how people using though different words, but talking actually about same thing.

But at the end of the day we are just a spirits having human expirience. We all have the very same origin. Thats how i understand these things. But then again my journey isn't finished yet and who knows what expiriences are waiting me. It actually doesn't matter what will happend. Important is that the ride should be enjoyable.